Nothing can ail this undescribable feeling of need
Struggling to get what everyone claims
I need to succeed
I have no say so in this life I live
Thats not my own
Linched by the lack of encouragement
To strive for my own goals
To reach for the heights of the
Things that make my spirit whole
Even when my eyes are dry the tears
Are ever flowing
The dreams that once existed
The wind has blown away
And the faith so strong that was in me yesterday
Has now decreased
Unpleased with every result
That death seems more appealing than
The continual beating of my heart
Then everyone would have no choice
But to pick away at the lifeless me
And determine every way they'd like for me to look
And who they want for me to be
I stand still spinning in a circle of unconsistance
A circle of happiness, shame, victory, and defeat
When will I meet the day when I'm no longer
Standing in the desert
Shielding my face from the particles of sand
When will I cease to cry of pain
And cling to joy
I'm linched by the lack of encouragement
And drenched with fear and doubt
As everyone else sorts my life out at their own will
I follow their commands but somehow
I continue to stand still.
